#adrogynous in a non adrogynous kinda way

[cowdragons]

hiiii idk if there's a not-weird way to say this but ur gender presentation is SO inspiring. ur giving the kind of androgyny that fries the part of my lizard brain that automatically sorts ppls genders. like that tumblr post that's like "What direction are you transitioning?" "Oh I gend mostly to the north-west". it's like..yr just a cute fuckin cow and it rules

this is probably the nicest thing ive ever heard about my gender and i vibe with it so hard. i DO gend mostly to the north west... its beautiful up here and u should take my hand

[redr0sewrites]

ok heres a very very very detailed analysis on all of my character design choices i made on my human bill design for no reason except i sent this to my friend and she encouraged me to post it sooooo.... here we go

ok so this photo implies that either A) bill wears really long gloves and boots all the time B) his arms and legs changed color as he grew C) they changed color when he destroyed his dimension and accidentally gained cosmic power. i thought it would be cool to implement this fact by giving his human design vitiligo to show the fact that his skin is literally two different colors (i personally think the theory is B cuz when ford blew that hole into his hat (which is also black) it was a part of him wnd therefore skin so i think his skin just changed over time). i also added in the vitiligo on his face to represent the brick pattern thats seen on him. idk i genuinely felt like he should have some sort of face markings to represent that. i also wanted to make him verryyyy gender non comforming. in the book of bill it states that his gender is quite literally triangle, so i feel like he wouldn't really fall into the same gender norms as humans and would end up looking very androgynous simply bc he would not care about looking masculine or feminine and you cant misgender him anyway bc his gender is incomprehendable. i also didnt want to give him a lot of eurocentric features cuz ive seen so many human bill designs that are kinda copy n paste white twink and while it is a good design i wanted him to be more "him" or what he would like. i felt like giving him a sharper nose and jawline would help attribute to his character and also to the sharp angles of his triangular form. i genuinely just wanted him to look beautiful, but not in an average every day person conventional way, moreso in an ancient deity, model, once in a lifetime person type of way. i wanted him to look beautiful in the intimidating way not the cute way. the hair was honestly just for sillies and their wasn't a LOT of thought behind it- again, i went with the adrogynous themes and gave him sort of a scaramouche bowl cut mullet but a little more wolf cut-y. yellow is obviously his color, but since black is also so prevalent in his character design i wanted to keep that theme going and make his roots + the bottom black. the roots symbolize his hat, while the bottom symbolizes his arms and legs. finally, the blue streak was kind of me wanting to incorporate his powers into his character design, and i thought it would be cool if the blue part of his hair glowed when he used his powers too. also his eyes are blue for similar reasons, and also because his eyes turned blue when he offered a deal to gideon(? or someone else can't remember). the entire theory behind his color scheme is obviously sticking to his original one, but also incorporating more blues to clash with the yellows because he's a very conflicted character. he so desperately wants to come off as like this emotionless and chaotic entity when in reality he has weaknesses and feelings and regrets, and his biggest flaw is his own simultaneous ego and insecurity. on this is not a website dotcom (i think, im like 99% sure i saw a ss of this) his listed weakness is himself, along with his favorite thing being himself, which kind of conveys what i was trying to convey with his colors. i felt like a lot of clashing would fit his character and make him sort of "pop" if that makes sense. blue snd yellow are stark opposites the same way his personality is very oppositional to himself and it just felt right. i also included the scar he gained when stan beat him in his mind, and i made that a darker blue not to represent his powers, but to represent his loss and also to be a contrast to the orange i used to shade (the bright blue contrasts the yellow, the dark blue contrasts the orange) to kind of show his weird angstyness afte his loss and sooort of death. i didn't want the scar to be as bright bc obviously its not a source of his power or connected to that in any way, but it still serves as a permanent reminder. i ALSO stopped the outer lineart at his scar to make it look like he was "shattered," to show his crumbling and cracked mental state within the theraprism

some bill/billford sketches from when i was on the plane yesterday (including my human!bill design :)

tumblr butchered the quality :/

[macismakingmistakes]

Sorry for being on and off

Hey peoples of tumblr. sooo i haven’t posted anything for two months and i’m sorry for that and i have no excuse except i deleted tumblr off my phone for a while :/ anyways i know its normal for identity to change alot along the way of finding who you are truly, but now i’m pretty sure i’m non-binary. I know non-binary is generally an umbrella term for some other genders but i’m just using it as an indentification because i don’t really feel male or female y’know? on one of the lgbt accounts i admin on instagram another admin posted something about questioning their gender and someone else left a comment trying to help them figure out their gender moreso, and it actually helped me, they told the person to imagine where they’d be in the future, or rather who they were. When you see yourself in the future do you see yourself as a guy or girl or neither? And thats what kinda hit me, i feel like in the future i will identify as neither a male or female. Yes i do know i definitely want to get top surgeory at some point in the future, but i don’t know, i feel like i could like or i’m interested in girls fashion still, but like generally i do like males fashion in which i usually settle over a more adrogynous look instead. But yeah that’s it. I might some more posts right now just to get them off my chest so look out for that i guess. And as always, if anyone’s reading this, i love you <3

~9/1/18 11:11pm